In my last blog post “A Place for You and Me” I explained I was waiting to have an ultrasound-guided biopsy on my left breast. The same breast cancer originally reared its ugly head in my body last year.
I had the ultrasound on June 17, 2018 and it was determined the area of concern may just be scar tissue. So, they did not do a biopsy and instead suggested I have a repeat MRI and ultrasound in six months. I was in total agreement and relieved that what they saw actually may be something other than a reoccurrence of the cancer.
Last week at an appointment with my oncologist he discovered a lump in my left breast that was not there at my last visit in May. I am amazed by how quickly things can “pop up” in your body. I am speaking at a phenomenal Women’s Retreat August 24-26, 2018. So, I agreed to follow up with my oncologist and deal with the lump on August 29th, after the retreat.
As I type these words I am still numb inside about what may lie ahead for me. Since my visit with my oncologist, I’ve me asking my Love (Jesus), if all of this fighting to stay on this side of life is really worth it. I fought with all I had in me to recover from the stroke I had in 2011. I suited up in my battle gear and fought harder than I ever have in my life last year to make it through my “Cancer World Tour (surgery, chemo, and radiation).” Today I found myself wondering if I have any fight left in me. I’m just not sure.
However unsure I may be, my Love is always certain. No matter what my life’s circumstance Jesus is always faithful to talk to me and remind me He’s still right here in the fight with me. And in Him victory is not only assured, it’s already done! His words to me in the image I created below really blessed me today. I hope they bless you as well.
“But at midnight Paul and Silas were praying and singing hymns to God, and the prisoners were listening to them. Suddenly there was a great earthquake, so that the foundations of the prison were shaken; and immediately all the doors were opened and everyone’s chains were loosed.” Acts 16:25-26 NKJV; “…Weeping may endure for a night, But joy comes in the morning.” Psalms 30:5 NKJV